My brother

My brother Jason fought a good fight with this horrible disease, he took his last breath @ 7:35am 4/24/14. I was with him until the end. We were listening to his favorite music, I told him that he fought hard and it was now time to rest, that it was ok, I would always be with him forever. Within a few minutes he took his last breath while I was holding him. Emotionally I am a mess, I now will have to learn to live life without my brother, this is so hard. How do you ever cope with this pain?

Sister forever heart broken,

Nicole

Nicole, I am very sorry for your loss. I wish you peace and healing. Thank you for letting us know.

Nicole my heart is broke for you right now, you have brought me back to 17.02.14 when I lost my gorgeous husband. I am glad for both you and your brother that you were there more so for you because you will always have those last moments to treasure. You will never forget or stop missing Jason you are on a new path now to learn how to live your live a different way then u did before, I no you don’t think so at the moment but you will do it. Keep talking to him, he will look after you and give you the strength u need to carry on. Sending lots of hugs ur way xxx

I am very sorry to hear that your brother passed. It was especially touching for me since my son's name is also Jason. I don't know how you cope with the pain of your loss, I have thought about that many times and am hoping not to have to deal with it. I think that as with any personal loss, time.............

Your brother would want you to live a happy life without him and for him. He would want you to remember the happy moments you shared together and he would want those moments to make you stronger and wiser. His body is gone but his spirit is still inside you... Was your brother older or younger? I read somewhere that sometimes people carry cells of their mom and older siblings in their body.

My heart hurts for you. I could have written this post back in July. I also lost my brother, was there while he took his last breath, we listened to his favorite music up until the end and we all knew it was time. That was 9 months ago and I still don't/can't/won't believe he is gone. I have no words on how to cope because I have not found out how to cope yet other than denial (which is not optimal obviously). I find comfort and strength in thinking about all the memories we made and the person he was. I am so, so very sorry, losing a sibling is like losing a piece of you, it's something that was always there and something that we, as people, assume will always be there until we are old. I hope you find comfort in knowing he is no longer in pain- an idea that I thought was cliche and ridiculous until I, myself, urged my own brother to take his last breath because I knew it was too much pain and suffering for any one person to bear. Keep lots of pictures, listen to voicemails, read texts... it helps. xoxox

Sorry for the loss of your brother, Jason. I am in a different boat then most people making comments. I currently have Stage 4 Synovial Sarcoma in my lungs. I found it around my left ankle around 28 July 2012. Went to Doc and had CT scans and MRI Scans in the months Sep and Oct 2012. Found 5CM Sarcoma tumor there. Took a sample of Sarcoma in Nov 2012. Turned out to be Synovial Sarcoma. I lost my left leg below the knee on 19 Dec 2012. Next CT scan was 28 Mar 2013, all clear. Next CT scan 25 Jun 2013, 3 very small spots in my right lung. Very small and they could not sample yet. Next CT scan 28 Sep 2013, 3 spots turned into 11 bigger spots. 3 Oct 2013 a sample was taking and the results were Stage 4 Synovial Sarcoma. I had a chest port put in on 11 Oct 2013. Started 6 cycles of Doxorubicin, 1 cycle every 3 weeks. Next CT Scan on 4 Mar 2014, still showed 11 spots. The report stated " Overall, stable findings without evidence of Disease progression." I was born in 1960, so I was 52 years old when the Sarcoma hit. I was in the U.S. Navy for 21 years and retired on 03 Oct 2003. I have been lucky and haved lived in Bermuda, Guam, Japan, Alaska, Washington, and Italy. I have been married for 23 years. I am just more worried about her being alone. She depends on me too much. I think I am more worried about her, then my own life. Next CT scan will be 19 May 2014. I hope and pray for good results.

Thank you for sharing the sad news about your brother.He was lucky to have had you in his life.The pain of losing a loved one never really gets easier, I think in time, the pain is not as raw and we learn to live with it. Your brother would want you to have a happy life and to remember the good times that you shared together.

Thank you for all for your concern. This by far is the most emotional pain I have ever felt. Jason was only 40 and I 42…only 18months apart. He’s the first man I loved and disliked in my life! No one knows you like your sibling, not a spouse, parent no one. I feel I have lost my past my present and my future all wrapped up in this one person that has always been here for me. Im told by several grieving ppl that you never get through this you learn how to walk beside the pain…